1. As a result of how many ways and by how many people I've been attacked by weaponized tech, I'm going out of business.

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2. Legally, I can't say names anymore. I suppose I owe some people a public apology since I can't prove the invisible, it's nothing more than hearsay.

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3. Self-expression: What gives some people the right to exist and not others? There are different communities of people all around the world and it isn't fair to the rest if only one group/type makes all the rules. True, there are many conservative societies. But also true, there are many of us who are law-abiding citizens who like to express ourselves freely. It was my understanding that slavery had been abolished. I should be allowed to say the f-word or any other word on my own website to attract those like me. That may offend some people, but it's offensive to my type of people that those are offended.

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4. I don't understand just how many misunderstandings there are about me, but there's nothing I can do to solve anyone else's perceptions or misconceptions. People can't keep each other guessing and then expect expectations to be met. It's unreasonable. If they have questions about me, ask. If they don't care to ask and they only care to "punish" by inflicting pain then they are in the wrong. 

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5. This world is ginormous and I can't solve everyone's problems, and I can't believe that anyone would have such major expectations of me in the first place. If they wanted me to lead anything, the right thing would have been to ask me, in person... not through A.I. or any virtual anything, because that type of tech has been manipulated and is inaccurate. So is neurological data, for that matter. All industries are impacted with the problems that we face today. I don't blame the inventors of tech, though they should have also invented proper security for their products. Foresight matters. I learned the hard way simply through making digital art, videos, and music... I was misunderstood and people literally hurt my brain as a result of that misunderstanding instead of directly addressing the problem. If the problem was that they didn't receive proper credit, then they should have told me and I would have responded with why I did what I did, or I would have corrected the issue if I was in the wrong.

6. I currently have health issues as a result of people's jealousy, misconceptions, vengeance, and who knows what their problem is because they never told me! They didn't want to communicate. Without communication, what are we?

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7. Apparently, I offend people simply because I'm me. What if I'm offended that you're you? I  still didn't aim to harm you, but some of you sure hit hard for no reason! Quite honestly, I don't even know how I'm still alive. So many people are hurting me. True that some may have been trying to help. I wish it was clearer between us. I wish we could have talked about things first. True that some people heard me scream. I don't know how, unless they were hacked into my computer and my phone... into my mind? Decoding me? Decoding everybody and making assumptions about the complexity of minds they know nothing of. It's not ok to make assumptions about the mind. It's not ok to make assumptions about people. It's not ok to judge them based on a few moments in time or a few words or ... people are complicated. The whole is greater than the sum of its parts.

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8. Considering the degree of problems we face in the world, has anyone considered that the problem is people? I happen to have a Bachelor's in Fine Art. That's typically a dismissed "joke" of a degree. That's only true in SOME cases. For some of us who take art seriously, it means something. And just because I focused on sculpture doesn't mean that I can't create in other styles. And it doesn't mean that I can't cross over into other genres of subjects like various sciences, various arts, etc. Some jealous people who chose their own life path decided it was ok to humiliate me and drag me down? I think they're in the wrong and they know it. They should grow up already because some of their vendetta's are from high school... 30 years ago! If people aren't educated in emotional intelligence, or to comprehend context, they might be like some members of the US government who mistook words like "intellligence". I am not military. I am a naturalized US citizen for over 40 years! I cannot believe I've been under attack by some Americans who want me to "go back home" as if I don't belong here. I am home, imbeciles! If people have questions about various words and the meanings thereof, the civilized and adult thing to do would be to directly correspond with me, but none did that! What kind of example are you setting for children? Do you even care? And what hope is there for any world if we can't solve the people issue? I live in NJ. Mere hours away from me are near-illiterate people. It's a thing! People who still think common-law marriage is a thing! No one is up on current law. including me, since I made my own mistakes. No one is aware that mere hours from here we're sooooo vastly different from each other, even though in some ways we're the same. That's why it's important to respect each other's existence. That's why it's important to gain clarity and to communicate properly. Instead, people are so quick to react and so quick to judge and so quick to attack. It's not as if they're not capable of being better. Why aren't they better? Choice? 

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9. I am a contemporary artist, poet, and many things because I asked myself, "what am I capable of?" That's how I discovered what. Do you know what you're capable of? Ask yourselves. Whoever wanted me to figure that out for them... No. 

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10. I think that I shouldn't be suffering, and yet, my family and I have been under attack for years based on some rumors and some misunderstood words, exceptions, etc. They type of pain I feel? Some days it feels like my head was hit with a baseball bat on either side, right above my ears. Then there's someone who's like, "get a job". Yup. Doing the best I can under the circumstances. Stop judging. Start understanding and make the world a better place yourselves. I'm sick of being people's scapegoat, as if my personal directions didn't matter!

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For the record, I deleted Facebook entirely. I deleted as many articles and Linkedin posts with any names as I could find. What else would you have me do?

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I need time to recover my mental health. It's a struggle, just like many in the entertainment, music, and art industries know all too well. All any of us really want is some inner peace, and I can't have that with people pushing their religions on my mind, stealing my freedom of choice, and trying to kill my inner self-expression. Know what I mean? 

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No one should have to struggle like this! 

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